Pornography | A Stern Warning

This is a confession, a caution, a stern advice. Can we call advice "stern?" lol, and a question.

So in one of my previous journals, I had shared about my struggle and victory over Pornography, but recently I almost got trapped again.

Last week I heard about a movie and got so intrigued by the story line that I got the movie, its seasonal and I got only the first season which has about 20 episodes.

In the first episode, there was a scene of explicit sex content. I ignored it. After all, its just one scene. Through the second and third episodes there was nothing and then the fourth had it in full. Great story line, excellent videography - the perfect movie to want to keep watching.... Though I knew this was a red light alert, my curiosity and interest in the movie wouldn't let me stop.... then I discovered that in the course of the movie I would feel tempted to replay the scenes that had the explicit content.

Something that has not happened to me in years was happening again; I was desiring to see Porn... then the impure thoughts would haunt me again and I would struggle to kick them out of my head.. but still, my curiosity would not let me stop. Dangerous content? Yes, but a really great movie, I wanted to see the end.

"You can control this..." I think I was the one telling myself that... then yesterday, as I saw the 10th scene, this time the explicit content was too explicit, I had to stop the movie.

When I got home and was praying, I kept singing "what a beautiful Name it is, the Name Of Jesus Christ My King" and I began to weep... I could sense God telling me "If I'm Your King then it would matter to you what I think you should do, movies I think you should see, songs I think you should listen to. If I'm your King then my Will is your desire no matter what the larger world says".

I know that so many people who think its okay to see movies with sex scenes and might disapprove of this post, but I'm not writing to them. I'm writing to the ones that care what Jesus thinks, who not only accept Him as Savior but as King and Lord...Its an ongoing battle. Like me, we sometimes find ourselves in places where it seems we let our guards down and slowly the Devil is creeping into our values, our minds and planting seeds that will eventually grow into destructive habits and addictions. No it doesn't happen overnight...we let ourselves accept some things that look "harmless" but that culminate into our being far from the persons Jesus desires us to be.

See, one of the foremost reasons why people fail is the break of focus by Sexual Addictions and you cannot constantly feed on sex information and not be drawn to it. Your heart is a power place; whatever you generate in your heart rules your Life and without the willingness to deliberately choose what we let into our hearts, we cannot win.

And did You know that the Devils's power is in his ability to suggest and convince you that there is nothing wrong with what he's asking you to do? Yes, and when we open our minds to a suggestion, our emotions and imaginations follow. We can't cast out our emotions, but we can control what we watch and listen to, because the body is influenced by what we watch and listen to.

We can choose to go with the crowd; watch everything and anything, open our minds to everything that entertains, OR

We can choose to let Jesus guide us and help us when we derail, making a firm decision to guard our minds.

We need to be determined to be different, and all Who God says we are, by making a decision to follow God's Word and not what we feel is acceptable.

#MHN.

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